"Hate me like you should"

If you knew the last thing through my mind
before the whizzing of that steel
Was the nights we spent together
and how they made me feel.

Back when life seemed worth living
and you kept my heart beating.
As I lay here on my back
With my insides on my outside
I feel revolutionized and reverted to a child.

Babbles of insanity pearcing you ears
like the scraping of a chalk board.

If you don't care at all for me
who the fuck could care.
I break my ribs open and expose my heart to you.

Tears of humiliation break the awful silence.
The silence of a thousand years ive wasted
Hanging on to you.

Promises of better days
butterflies and lemonade
Things that never come around again
Because im too fucking sad to feel.

Trapped in a cage of hate
The bars of rusted tears ive made
Take me to a place inside
thats not safe for you to see.

I'd like to think you hate me
because hate is all-consuming
It would show me that you think about me
Even if im gone.

Its a bond that keeps us together
A mutual dis-respect, you think.
How in the dark you seem.
You never knew how I felt at all.

Id like to think like summer days
But the sunlight is all but gone
Winter has filled my heart
No room for you at all.

I fell upon the trap you set
and im happy that I did.
I wouldnt trade your beautiful eyes
for all the chances that ive missed.